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[loracs]

Today is the 5th anniversary of my mothers' death. Will there ever come a time when I'll not get so incredible weepy and sad on this day? I'll call both my sisters later. It's become a tradition.

My mom said she saw a fortune teller when she was in her 20's. The seerer said she would live until 83 or 84 years old. My mom died 3 weeks before her 83rd birthday. Today it occurred to me my mother might have made this story up. She was 39 when she gave birth to me. This was considered very old back in 1957. I know she worried about dying before I became an adult. She was 11 when her father died but in her 30's when her mother died. Telling me this story all my life might have been her way of trying to quell my childhood fears of losing her.

Or maybe it was true. Guess I'll never know.

Comments

*HUGS*

[tracytreefrog.livejournal.com]

WOW I didn't realize it was the same day. Today would have been my Grama's 99th B-day. I tend to get weepy too around her B-day. Don't know why or if it goes away. Wish I could do something to ease your hurt.

[kineticphoenix.livejournal.com]

Big hugs and warm thoughts to you on this day. What is remembered lives.

[clever-doberman.livejournal.com]

Yahrzeit (the Yiddish word for anniversary of death) is a time for remembering. you aren't just remembering one event, you are also remembering the days leading up to it, the days afterward, the weather, the scenery, and other random details.

I think of it as bittersweet, because when I remember my beloved Dan it makes me feel closer to him. I also take the day off, have a ritual with his sister, and also have fun remembering silly things.

Yep, your mom did an incredible job taking on motherhood again at 39 and she did a great job sticking around as long as she did, and making sure she was in your heart forever. I'm glad you'll be talking to your sisters, as that kind of ritual really helps.

so do hugs, sweet woman.

[firecat]

[hugs]

my mom was 39 when she gave birth to me in 1961.