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Last week at this time, I was also alone at work. I needed to answer phones until 5 pm, finish a few things and then close the place up. G, the security guard next door stopped by to say hi. A few minutes after this, a man walked/staggered in. I acknowledged him and so did G. He looked a G with such a menacingly expression like he was going to take a swing at him. Then he focused on me and murmured something like "here to see her." His back was to G now, and when G raised his eyebrows as if to ask me if I knew him, I did a small shake of my head "no".
The man approached closer until only the return of my desk was between us. He said "I like big woman" and then mumbled something else. At this G very nicely said, "Sir we're closing up now." Again the man looked at G like he was going to deck him. He said he wanted only to shake my hand and extended his. Intending to do a very quick handshake, I only extended my 1st and 2nd finger. He grabbed them tightly and tried to pull me towards him. I was able to slip them out of his hand. At this G stood up and said again "Sir, you have to leave now, we are closing." He mumbled and stumbled a little sideways and then headed for the door. G followed him outside since he looked to be headed next door where G works security. I quickly locked the door behind them.
I didn't think I'd get spooked that easily. I've lived and worked in the East Bay (Bay Area, CA) for over half my life. And some areas are rougher than others, but I've usually felt safe. I'm aware, try not to take stupid chances, but have lived my life pretty comfortable with my surroundings. But this incident really disturbed me, so much that I'm even thinking about it a week later.
Am I getting more fearful as I age? Having lived a life without experiencing violence or abuse, do I think maybe my luck is running out? Was this incident really any different than other strange encounters I've experienced over the years? If G had not been here, do I think I could have handled it?
It's after 5pm, time to close it up and head out.
The man approached closer until only the return of my desk was between us. He said "I like big woman" and then mumbled something else. At this G very nicely said, "Sir we're closing up now." Again the man looked at G like he was going to deck him. He said he wanted only to shake my hand and extended his. Intending to do a very quick handshake, I only extended my 1st and 2nd finger. He grabbed them tightly and tried to pull me towards him. I was able to slip them out of his hand. At this G stood up and said again "Sir, you have to leave now, we are closing." He mumbled and stumbled a little sideways and then headed for the door. G followed him outside since he looked to be headed next door where G works security. I quickly locked the door behind them.
I didn't think I'd get spooked that easily. I've lived and worked in the East Bay (Bay Area, CA) for over half my life. And some areas are rougher than others, but I've usually felt safe. I'm aware, try not to take stupid chances, but have lived my life pretty comfortable with my surroundings. But this incident really disturbed me, so much that I'm even thinking about it a week later.
Am I getting more fearful as I age? Having lived a life without experiencing violence or abuse, do I think maybe my luck is running out? Was this incident really any different than other strange encounters I've experienced over the years? If G had not been here, do I think I could have handled it?
It's after 5pm, time to close it up and head out.
