loracs | Nov. 2nd, 2006

dbubleyis all settled into KPAC for about 2 weeks. The have a great bed (finally) for her. It's a full size air mattress and it can move from flat to a chair. She has such short legs that they have to deflate the bed for her to get into it - even when the bed is in it's lowest position.

The other big thing I've been meaning to post about is that I have my first job interview in 20 years. It's today. I don't even know if I want the job. When my current supervisor started last year, one of his first questions to me was "what do I want to do?" He couldn't believe I've been in my same classification for all 20 years with the City. I said I do the work of an Admin. Assistant, so it would be nice to have the title (and pay) of one. When the City had openings for an AA (and hence would take applications for it), he urged me to apply so I could get "qualified" in the city system for the position. The problem is, he didn't really understand how the City works. Just because I pass the test, does not mean the position is in our budget. But I went ahead and applied, went and took the test when called, now I have an appointment tomorrow with the Information Tech department.  I was #8 on the list out of about 100 people who took the test. I heard about 800 people applied originally.

Anyway, of the all the city departments, IT is one I would like to work in. I know I wouldn't want to work in Police or Fire Department. And Public Works or the City government offices don't interest me much either.

So here's the real problem. I never really wanted to leave my current site. I like what I do. I like most of the people I work with. While no one is indispensable, I really am the only one who does a lot of critical functions - payroll, pricing of classes, tracking A/R, populating the registration software with our classes, refunds, and I'm the general "fix it" person. I know my leaving would demoralize several staff people, people I consider friends. I've always felt appreciated by my co-workers (if not always the "big wigs" above), but since I got the call for this interview I've paid attention to what they say. And not 1 day has gone by that one of them didn't say something akin to "I don't know what we'd do without you."

And we are in the middle of the transition back to our rehabbed site next year.  Part of me really wants to be a part of that, but then I'm also so tired of the level of responsibility that gets thrown on me. My old boss, J gave me lots of responsibility too, but she usually checked first. Or I could say to her "I'm overloaded" and she would figure it out, either shifting something off my plate or taking the new project elsewhere. My new boss, he's so swapped from above, that he just keeps dumping on me. Mostly I've taken it - only once did I just say "No" to him.

It's late and I'm rambling. I'm just so torn. If they don't offer me the job, I'll feel disappointed, but if they do, I might not take it.  Or I might. Either way, I see a lot of hard stuff there too. This is so weird. This is only my 5th job interview in my life. This is only the 4th job I've had and it's been 20 years.   What would it feel like to work in a whole different office? And to be the newbie?