So tired

Worried about "mom" (aka serenejournals mom) and about serene. Living in the hospital while someone you love is going through all kinds of pain is exhausting, draining you of every thing you need to be the support for the sick person. In this last year, I've been both support and patient. Let me tell you, even with the pain and fear of surgery, it was easier being the patient. Of course, this is bringing up all MY Mom stuff. This will be the 8th holiday without my mom. The sadness and tears come unbidden, it has never gone away - it shifts to a lesser prioity, but it's always waiting just off stage to overwhelm me.

Almost forgot - I got in my very first moving accident today. Thirty-four years of driving and now, today of all days, I have my first. Everyone is okay. The van is okay. The other car has some damage. I'm not sure whose fault it was.

Now I'm really going to bed.