thinking

[loracs]

I'm thinking I need a swift kick in the pants.  I'm thinking I'm in a rut with no rutting.  I think I worry too much.  I think I don't worry enough.  I'm thinking if change isn't in the air, I should turn on a big fan.  I'm thinking I have lots of people in my life that love me and that I love.  I'm thinking time is running out and I'm not so fast to chase it anymore. 

Since I'm at work, too bad I'm not thinking more about doing some.

Comments

[epi-lj.livejournal.com]

:( What's the nature of the rut?

[loracs.livejournal.com]

An overall ennui - mid-life crisis - not liking my job as much as I use to, (too many changes), pain in my mouth (waiting for the permanent cap) and very recently, pain in my knee. One day I think I have a handle on things, the next - the handle has disappeared.
I think about going back to school, but I don't think I'd have the energy, mentally or physically. I think about just looking for another job, but now that I'm on the cusp of the big Five Ohh, I don't know if that's a good idea or even very feasible. Some days I think I'd like to write (seriously), other days I'd just like to a "housewife" - an identity I've NEVER EVER wanted before.
Kinda like that. Ain't ya glad you asked? 8-)

[epi-lj.livejournal.com]

LJ didn't e-mail me this comment! Weird. (I clicked through to see what the other comments on the post were.)

I can relate to a lot of that. I'm not sure what the best solution is. I've found that what's worked for me in the past was forcing myself to do something that "gets the ball rolling" -- something with ongoing aftershocks that keep me at it for a while. Enrolling in school would definitely fit that bill. Spearheading a new project at work would do it. It's hard to overcome the inertia to take that first step, but if you can screw your eyes first and take it, then the rest sort of just comes at you and you have to deal.

[wild-irises.livejournal.com]

I can relate to many of those, but "you don't worry enough"? Really, now.