I feel bad.

[loracs]

I fell asleep last night around 10:30 pm.  I should have gotten up around midnight, taken my meds and put stonebender to bed.  Instead, dispite his calling me many, many times, I continued to sleep until 6:00 am!  Yep, poor guy just went to sleep around 7 am.  He thought about just staying up, but he knew he'd crash really bad at some point, plus it's not good for his butt to sit so many hours.  Now I just have to get him up at a reasonable time so we can get back to something resembling a "normal" schedule.  On weekdays he has to get up between 8 and 9 am when his attendant gets here.  Even if I didn't have to go to work, I have to be up by 8 am because his attendant is coming.  

I hate when I crash so bad like that - nothing gets me up.  I can even sleep through the phone ringing.  And the alarm clock - forget it. I know it's a combination of sleep deprivation and my blood sugar numbers - this happens mostly when they are high.  And they were.  And they are.  I just fixed a burger and ate it open face on sourdough bread with tomato and avocado.  That and a handful of pills = my breakfast.  I guess I'm up for the day.  It feels weird to be awake when stonebender is sleeping. 

Comments

[clever-doberman.livejournal.com]

more hugs, and strong encouragement for you not to beat yourself up.

you've been wanting to readjust your sleep cycle, and it will have to be a dual effort, but I think your body gave you a clear message.

I'm also wondering if you were strapped in, so to speak, during that long "nap."

teaching Gilly to jump up and lick you awake will be a fun training task. I'll help!

[loracs.livejournal.com]

Yes, I had my cpap on. I know when I lay down, that I will sleep at least an hour or two, so I put it on. What I didn't expect was a 7.5 hour nap!