Still Feeling Like An Alien

[loracs]

It is very, very quiet here today. My next-door-cube person is on vacation. My immediate boss is on vacation. I think about ½ the department has taken today off. I suppose it’s a combination of a Friday and 10 days before xmas. I’m still feeling pretty weird in this corporate world. I’m still surprised when my key card actually lets me in. Any minute now they’re going to figure out I’m a pretender. I don’t really belong here. It’s also “Casual Friday” and I don’t feel all that casual. Will I ever feel “at home” here?

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At Home?

[dbubley.livejournal.com]

In the 22 years I worked at SFSU I can't say I ever felt "At Home." Never. Oh, it was ok sometimes and I liked some of the people, but if I thought too much about it I almost always wished I were somewhere else. The good days were the ones when I didn't hate being there, and there were quite a few good days and quite a few not.

When I talk to people there they tell e how much they miss me. It feels strange. I don't really miss them that much. I think that most of them feel more like part of the group than I ever did. I worked with these people. Some of them I really like. But it was never home and they were never family.

I liked my cubicle, but then I very rarely had an office, and when I did it was always with Milly who loved to keep the door open and bring her friends in. It actually felt more private when I had my own desk in the middle of a big room and no cubicle.

I am at home now because I am not there. They tell me I must come by and visit. Maybe I will, when I feel like leaving home for awhile.

*Hugs*

[tracytreefrog.livejournal.com]

So sorry you are feeling like the odd man out so to speak.
I hope things get better soon!